When it comes to being home, one should feel cozy and comfortable and that is exactly how I feel, my body is here and my mind is here but my mind sees it all very differently from what I remember, everything is much bigger, cleaner, fresher, more comfortable, I am not trying to destruct my life I am constructing it and it feels really constructive and I like it, i think it helps that i have my own space and i can run around in the nude